My Journey Diary – #1
I thought it might be nice to touch base on a regular basis to let you all know how I’m progressing and what’s happening in my life and with my health.
Work on the blog has really taken over everything else at the moment as I am working hard to launch at the beginning of February to the wider audience. The anticipation of everything brings with it excitement and definitely some fear. I think when you are about to embark on a personal journey, when something could become much bigger than you, then it is normal to have nerves. Particularly when you suffer from an anxiety disorder.
I’m using all the tools I have in the bank to remain calm and focused on a daily basis. I’m trying not to look too far ahead and to take each day as it comes. I think over-thinking everything can only take the joy out of something that is really so exciting and is a big step forward in my life.
Personally I have been riding high. I have a working group of people who are looking at the blog and so far the feedback is great so I’m really happy. But the past few days I have been worn out. I think all the excitement and work has taken its toll a bit. I am not very good at remembering that I have fibromyalgia and that exertion, mentally and physically, will eventually have an impact on me. I’m going to use my pacing techniques and remember to take time to switch off too. I want to stay the distance with this blog and that is the most important thing. So planning my time is going to be key. Overall I’m feeling pretty strong mentally, but I always have days where my head is ‘in a box’ as I like to say. This means I have far too many thoughts buzzing around in my head and I definitely have a feeling of things being not quite right. When I’m like this I try to breathe, meditate and keep my faith in the big man that all is under control. It just calms me and centres me and helps me to see the bigger picture.
I’m so excited for this journey and have a feeling it’s going to mean big changes in my life. I have faith and hope that my mind and body keep up! I hope you are doing ok too.
Hugs K x
2 Comments
Pat Palmer
10/02/2015 at 7:31 pm
Sounds like you are getting to understand your body/mind/condition more and more Kate.
You have already said you need to remind yourself to give that body/brain some quiet time too. That must be so hard when you have so much to say and are so passionate about your blogging. Pace yourself and enjoy all your hard work. Xxx
Helen Blackwell
10/02/2015 at 9:08 pm
I would just like to say that this is a very inspiring thing to do and certainly highlights to young people that depression is an illness that affects many. I’m positive that I will get a lot from reading your blog and will certainly be trying the 4,7,8 breathing technique.
I have suffered with 2 very different episodes of bad depression the second very recently forcing me to resign from my job. However although bad days still occur the good ones certainly outweigh them and I’m sure on both good and bad days I will use this blog as both comfort and reassurance that I shouldn’t be ashamed or embarrassed. Thanks kate fab job so far x