Depression/Anxiety – You are still you!

You have not disappeared. You are still you. Whoever you were before this nightmare began. Deep inside, behind the fear, anguish and despair, the REAL you still exists. You have not gone anywhere. Do not be afraid that you have changed. That you are now a different person. You are not. Nothing can change the fire in your soul, the light in your eyes, your personality and all you were born to be. No external or internal influence can change that. It was God given. That person is still very much alive, you are just covered up by mental and physical pain.

When we are lost in all the pain of depression it’s so hard to believe you will ever be your true self again. You fear you have changed forever. But let me assure you, you have not. Everything in you remains as it ever was. As healing comes, you will see small glimpses of yourself. You may laugh at a joke or you may say something funny that another laughs at. When this happens you have a glimmer of who you truly are, who you always were, who you have always been. As the healing comes, bit by bit your confidence will grow again. As it grows and some of the fear and pain drop away, more of your true self is revealed. You will take so much happiness from this that it gives you HOPE. And Hope means everything. You realise that you were always there. Just tired and run down by mental and physical pain.

I promise you, as your journey of recovery unfolds, you will see more and more of your true self coming back. Let it be. Enjoy those moments. Let it happen.

Anxiety and depression are so very real and debilitating. It’s no wonder it consumes all parts of you. But in reality, no matter how bad it gets, it is just a moment in time. Nothing can change you completely. The bad days will become less, and you will rekindle yourself.

One of my greatest fears when I was first depressed and anxious was that I was changed as a person forever. It was my mum who always assured me that this was NOT the case. And she was right. As the depression lifted and the anxiety let go of its grip on me, my old self returned. But, there had been some change. I was a BETTER person. A more sympathetic person. A more thankful person. More thankful for everything and I had a new appreciation for the state that is ‘peace of mind’.

So be assured my friends, that no matter how difficult things seem right now, how different you feel, you are still the same person and you will come through with a new attitude. A better attitude. You will no longer judge others in the same way as you did and you will appreciate all the good things that life brings.

Onwards my loves xx Huge hugs Kiki xxx